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Alrighty, another story, but one that actually happened to me. So I'm at Cold Stone getting myself a tasty, cold treat and my wee bit of ice cream comes to $4.76. I hand the girl a $5 bill, then decide to give her a penny as well. Her response "oh, it's ok, I've already put it in". Me "oh, thanks" (thinking she already put a penny in). She hands me my change back...24 cents! Dumbass! The reason I was giving you the penny was so that I could get a quarter back...so when she said "i already put it in" she really meant "ha, I'm a dumbass and I already typed it in the cash register and it will screw up my drawer if you give me a penny"...stupid people irritate me...end rant #1.

I'm studying for the actual GRE now, not the subject test, which I was finding quite enjoyable, but the actual GRE, the boring one with all that english stuff. I have decided that my vocabulary sucks and I HATE (with a passion) analogies. Really...I hate them. I thought I had a decent vocabulary, but apparently I was mistaken. Althgouh, all these words in here that I need to learn, they're dumb. They're so pretentious sounding and who seriously uses them besides pretentious, holier-than-thou people?! Oh well, the things I have to do to make money in life...end rant #2

I think that's all the ranting I feel like doing right now...maybe more later

In 2003, an Ohio man got carried away with pretending to be a cop. The man liked to dress up as a policeman and pull people over for traffic violations. When he got an argument from one driver he stopped, the fake cop called in real cops for backup...When the real cops arrived on the scene of the crime, they arrested the fake cop.

An Ohio teenager on probation for another crime in 2003 knew he couldn't pass the required urine test, that marijuana was going to show up in the sample. So he substituted a urine sample from a cousin...only one problem: His cousin's urine tested positive for cocaine.

Gotta love those Ohioans ;)

1. You are in the Witness Protection Program and must invent a new first, last, and middle name. What's your new name?
Morgan Anne Spencer

2. You are in a threesome with two famous people, alive or dead, who would they be?
Zach Braff and Kit Carlson (is he considered famous? well he is to me!)

3. You are in charge of naming your new band. What's the name of the band? What's the name of their first album?
The Fucking Jerkholes (my friends and I have already discussed this)
Big C*ck Blues


4. You are going to get a free tattoo. What and where is it?
the small of my back, the Bon Jovi "Have a Nice Day" face

5. You are being forced to listen to one song over and over, ad infinitum, as a form of torture. What song is it?
Really, anything by Snoop Dogg would do it

6. You are leaving your state/province. What state do you move to?
Tennessee, NC, or SC

7. You are leaving your country; where would you move to?
Italy or Greece

8. You get to choose one book as the best ever written. What book do you choose?
wow, that's tough...I can't say it's really the best book ever written but I absolutely loved it..."My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult

9. You get to choose one movie as the best ever made. What movie do you choose?
That's not fair, different genres of movies are great for different reasons, but I'm gonna have to go with my all time fave and say Dumb & Dumber just cause that shit NEVER gets old!

10. You get to spend one day each as a bird, an insect, and a mammal. What bird would you be? What insect? What mammal?
Bird: a Flamingo, cause they're hot pink and they stand on one leg to sleep, and that's tits.
Insect: a ladybug I suppose b/c most people don't try and kill them just cause they're a bug...people like to play with them :)
Mammal: a dog, well cause dogs are the shit and all they do is eat, sleep, shit, and bug people to rub their belly...and that would be the life!

What happened to 11?!

12. You must relive one year of your life. Which would you least like to relive? Which would you most like to relive?
Least: 1999, it was the end of high school which I honestly enjoyed a lot and it was the start to a really shitty year of college
Most: 2004, I was still in college, which I miss dearly, and I was actually doing really well at that point. And I graduated from UM that year and that was pretty effing awesome


13. You have a time machine that will take you backwards anywhere from 1800 to the present. What decade do you most want to visit?
The 70's, I think Bonnaroo has turned me into a hippie! Not really, but I think the 70's would be cool, and I think I would have liked to be a hippie back then...peace, love, and music.

14. You must choose to go skydiving or very-deep-sea diving.
Skydiving for sure. I think they deep sea dive would scare the SHIT out of me and I would probably die from hyperventilating or something

15. You get to return to the past (using that handy dandy time machine we were talking about before) and have a sexual encounter with a rock star who is no longer alive. Who do you pick?
I'd have to go with Elvis, when he was still young and FINE

16. You get to be a contestant on any game show, airing today or in the past. What show do you want to be on?
Jeopardy or Wheel of Fortune

17. You are given $1 million dollars but you must give it all to one charity. What charity do you choose?
St. Jude's Children's Hospital without question


18. You must ban one word from the dictionary and all usage, to be no longer uttered or written. What word do you ban?
"hello"


19. You can have 100 million dollars tax-free but, if you take it, you'll die at the age of fifty. Do you take it?
I doubt it, money can't truly make someone happy, and I'd probably do something stupid with it and kill myself before I hit 50, and that would suck

And:


List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now.

1. Throw it all Away - Brandi Carlile

2. Vienna - The Fray

3. Fake Plastic Trees - Radiohead

4. Other Side of the World - KT Tunstall

5. Bullet - Mat Kearney

6. The Way I Feel - Matt Wertz

7. What's Left of Me - Nick Lachey

Ticket to Bonnaroo: $200

hand made bowl: $20

ride on the ferris wheel: $5

naked guy throwing your 3/4 bottle of pop at the crowd during a Radiohead concert: PRICELESS!

So we got back from Bonnaroo yesterday afternoon and what an amazing experience it was. I could tell stories and try and describe it but one could never really understand the craziness that is Bonnaroo. Never have I been somewhere that when going through "security" your backpack gets searched and they find a bag of weed and say "I'll let you in with that". Nice.

Anyway, since Thursday night, I have seen David Ford, Matt Costa, Ben Folds, Nickel Creek, Tom Petty (wsg STEVIE NICKS!), My Morning Jacket, Umphrey's McGee, Common, Blues Traveler, Gomez, moe., Buddy Guy, Elvis Costello, Beck, Radiohead, Dresden Dolls, Sasha, Mike Doughty, Bela Fleck, Bonnie Raitt, and Phil Lesh (w/ Trey Anistasio, Joan Osbourne, and some other peeps). All of that, plus being hot and smelly for 4 days, for $200...I'd say it was well worth it!

Lots of good times were had, though I've been sworn to secrecy about several (What happens at Bonnaroo stays at Bonnaroo). I have to say that the Radiohead show (for more, see Kady's Blog)and the hours that followed were my favorite though. Amazing people watching. We walked around for a bit then I said we should sit against this wall by one of the stages, there were other people sitting there, so I thought nothing of it...until a few guys came over to the wall and started pissing on it. That was fabulous. So after Kari got grossed out enough, she moved, but I didn't care. I'd already been sitting there for like half an hour, so the pee was already on me. We did move after awhile though, but not far. We saw a 14 year oldish boy that looked like Peter Pan literally sucking face with his girlfriend...most awkward make out session I've ever witnessed. Then we saw a couple practically having sex next to the piss wall. Both had their hands in each others pants...I was just waiting for her to mount him. We watched all the guys pissing on the wall, which was funny cause everyone has a different technique, very interesting.

The night before that, we were walking around and saw a guy either drunk as shit or high on something, jump on the top of a golf cart driving buy, the roof started caving in on the peoples heads and they were trying to get him down and luckily someone half caught him as he was falling off cause he definitely would have broken several bones if they hadn't. I'm pretty sure he at least broke his arm though, cause he fell hard. That was pretty crazy. Saw several people walking around naked, that was hot.

So tonight I decided that there must have been an "annoying person" convention at work. Why do I think this? Because there were a lot of fucking annoying and dumb people in there.

First off, I got sick of telling people to stand in front of the blue sign because everytime I would tell someone that, they would stop...stare at me with a dumbfounded look, and continue to walk into the Winner's Circle...so I just gave up and let them walk around...save my voice some (and I do have a sore throat...I'll just blame it on the stupid people).

Second, the easiest way to describe my second annoyance is best told in dialogue format....enjoy...(oh, and if you know me, I'm sure you can figure out my tone of voice during the interaction) [DG = dumb girl]

(Scene) 12ish year old girl walks up to counter with 2 sisters in there 20s and her mom and sets her stuff down on the counter.

DG: How many am I going to have left?

Me: Ummmm, I don't even know how many you have, I need your card (I swipe the card)

DG: How many do I have left?

Me: Ummmm, I haven't rung anything up yet (scan the first big item)

DG: How many left?

Me: Do you want to know how many you have left after this (I point to the item I scanned) or after everything?

DG: Everything

Me: Ok, I'm workin on it (as I wave my hands in an abracadabra motion over the remaining items to be scanned)

Sister 1: (speaking to sister 2) Did she just make fun of her? (referring to what I said to DG)

Me: (thinking, yeah, I pretty much was cause your sister's a DG...but because I was thinking that, I couldn't hear the rest of the conversation) You have 1,250 tickets left

End scene.

Third annoyance...if you don't know D&B, there are 2 counters. One where you have your tickets weighed, the other where you buy your stuff (the counters are on opposite sides of the store) Sometimes, however, when it is slow, we weigh tickets and ring people up at the same counter. During this period of time, we have a sign, reading "THIS STATION CLOSED" in front of both computers on the other side. So while I'm stocking glasses and such (on the opposite side of the store from the usual redemption counter) a woman approaches me and says "Is that station closed?" I stop, look up, look at her boyfriend who is leaning on the counter and practically making out with the sign and tell her "yeah, he can help ya right over here". Mind you my tone of voice wasn't the friendliest...I'm not sure what it would necessarily be considered...maybe a "um, are you retarded?! I'm so irritated that you seriously just asked me that question" tone of voice...yeah, something like that...

I SO don't have an attitude at work!

Anyway, those were just a few highlights of my evening...hope you enjoyed your Saturday night as much as I enjoyed mine! Oh, and I forgot the best part. This really has nothing to do with being annoyed, just a funny little thing...there was actually a wedding reception there this afternoon...WTF?!

So as horrible as it is, I'm getting sick of everyone around me getting engaged or married...come on already! I just found out this guy that I sorta had a temporarily huge crush on in college is recently engaged, my friend Jenny from high school is getting married in August, Miss Brandy that I work with got engaged a few months back, one of my cousins just got married in Januaray...and those are just the recent ones! Ahhhh...seriously frustrating!

How far does $7 go in Africa?

Give 9 orphans 3 meals in a day, or
Pay for 21 orphans' housing for 1 day, or
Keep a child in school for 3 months, or
Give 7 Africans clean water for a year, or
Provide one month's worth of life-saving drugs to someone living with AIDS.

Hey Guys, I recently attended a Matt Wertz concert and he and his guitarist Justin took time out of the show to discuss "mocha club" The following little shpeel tells a little bit about it. Please consider it...it would mean a lot to me!

Thanks so much!


"I think it's unfathomable that 6,500 people die of HIV/AIDS every day in Africa, and what really gets me is the number of orphans left behind. I have felt convicted to do something about it.

I found out about this organization, African Leadership, who is really addressing these issues. Their staff in Africa is completely made up of Africans, and the organization empowers these leaders with the necessary resources to help their fellow Africans.

They created this online community to help people who want to make a difference, but who aren't loaded, to do so. They call it the Mocha Club - because it costs us each joining up and giving up the equivalent of two Grande Mocha's per month, and we'll take care of an orphan's needs, or help someone with HIV/AIDS. So I am looking for a few people to join me and offer support of $7 each per month.

Please do me a favor, and let me know if you are up to it or not. And if you're not able, don't worry. Please just let me know what you think because I would really like to get this thing rollin'."

Here's where to join:
http://www.mochaclub.org/join/429

Alrighty, where shall I start? Amanda and I are still not talking. I only have about a month left of babysitting, which is pretty sad because I adore Avery and I am gonna miss him SO much. The kid cracks me up like no other. I swear he was saying "fuck" the other day while sitting in his high chair, cause I have no idea what he would have been trying to say that sounded like that. Then he was chasing the dog around with his plastic sword. He wasn't hitting her though, I yell at him when he does that. But she was running around like a psycho dog and he was cracking up and running after her. I probably shouldn't have let him, but it was hysterical and I was quite amused.

We have a meeting at work Tuesday morning which I'm sure will turn out to be quite interesting. I just realized that I put one of those pore minimizer thingys on my nose, and you're supposed to leave it on for like 15 minutes, but I'd say it's been about half an hour...and it's gonna hurt like a beyotch to peel it off...oh yeah, I think I just cried a little.

I'm watching Family Guy right now, and it's still like the best tv show ever. Work was annoying tonight. I was supposed to work 2-11, but the smart person who write our schedule scheduled a newbie to close and do inventory which wasn't going to happen, so we let her leave early and I stayed until 1:30 instead, but I got a free dinner out of it...can't complain too much about that. It was definitely CAN night though (Chaldean appreciation night for those of you who don't know D&B lingo). I know it's horrible, but they can really be irritating. Most of them are regulars and they think they're so funny when they're trying to be a bunch of scammers...but it's not! It's just annoying. Especially after I've been there for 9 hours, I have a headache, it's hot in the building, and my hip hurts like a bitch. It's not that I don't have a sense of humor...I just hate my job.

Wednesday...Jen and I went to Ann Arbor to see Patty Griffin. We got there an hour and a half before doors and there was already a line, so we got Subway and sat in line and ate. Patty Griffin was absolutely amazing and I have a bit of a crush on her guitarist Doug (he totally reminded us of Bill Paxton!)

Friday...Karl, Mitch, my mom and I went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse...oh how I love their rolls and cinnamon butter! Karl and I went and got some yummy Cold Stone ice cream then went back to her place and watched Clerks and when Mitch arrived we watched Mallrats. Such great movies and I love Jason Lee!

Saturday, Karl and I took a little roadtrip to Holland, MI to see Matt Wertz and Mat Kearney. The drive wasn't too bad, it was kinda nice to be the passenger for a change. I usually like to drive though...I think it's a control thing. But I got to control the ipod, and that's much more fun than controlling the car. We had some good Italian food in Holland then went to a coffee shop to kill some time. The show was actually in a chapel on Hope College's campus, which was a little odd, but not too bad. There was an stage and even though Karl and I were pretty far back in line, we got a spot right against the stage, so I got some pretty sweet pictures. Gabe Dixon Band opened, and they were really good, then Mat Kearney went on. He was on the Rock Boat with us, but we never got a chance to see him perform. I'd heard a few of his songs an a free EP i got, and I liked a few of them, but some others I wasn't too keen on. But I really enjoyed him live, I would definitely see him live. Matt Wertz, as usualy was hella amazing. He's just so adorable. Sadly, as usual, we had a group of annoying girls behind us. I don't know how it happens, but no matter where we are, we have ridiculously irritating people by us. The whole time, I could here these slightly underage drunk girls talking about how hot Matt was and singing along with the songs out loud. Usually, I might not mind the singing, but no one else really was except for a few songs when he more or less told everyone to sing and she didn't have a good voice either. And then, for the last song in his encore he unplugged his guitar and walked to the edge of the stage to sing a song, so the audience was like dead silent, and they yell out "you're so hot!". I hate that so much. I mean I'm sure he was flattered or whatever, but I would think a musician would rather hear someone yell out how amazing their music was or something. I dunno. I guess that's what always irritates me when I go to shows of good looking musicians (which is most of them) because no matter who they are, I genuinely like them for their music and it irritates me that annoying girls like that stand there, talk through an entire set, and just keep saying how hot he is...grrr. That's probably my issue with the whole boy band thing too. As much as I honestly like a lot of their music, I'll admit that I loved N'Sync and Backstreet Boys were pretty good too, but I liked the music. Maybe it was simple or whatever, but it was poppy and catchy but sometimes that's what I need. But SO many of the girls that listen to them are just like "oh my god, JT is SOOOOO hot!!!"...#1 reason I stopped watching TRL when I was in college. I couldn't handle the girls in the audience that they would pan to during the videos and they'd be like "we voted for N'sync because Justin's hair is amazing and JC is hot! AHHHHHHHHHHH" Seriously! how fucking irritating is that shit!? But I digress...after the show Kari and I hung around to talk to Wertz and get his autograph. While waiting for him to come out we got our pic with Mat Kearney and talked to him for a minute. Then finally, we were next in line to talk to Wertz and some guy comes up and tells him they gotta go, it was after 1am. Ok, fine, no big deal if there were like still a line of people waiting, but there were only 4...me and Kari, and this other couple! Come on dude! So Wertz started to walk away but realized that would be lame as hell, so he took a pic with the other couple then with us, no autograph though. But I did tell him he needs to come to the east side of the state, but he said we'd probably be the only ones there...which is SO not true, so I'm gonna have to work on that. On the drive home I realized that I lost $20...it had been in my front jeans pocket, which I tend to forget aren't very deep, so it must have fallen out somewhere. Most likely in the bathroom, cause I dropped my ID out of my pocket at the Kelly Clarkson concert in Columbus that way...sucks balls! So I was pretty pissed when I realized that, didn't talk for like 20 minutes...stoooopid pants!

Alright, I think I'm done with my random, boring update. But I felt like writing and that was really all I had to write about. Oh yeah, and my hip has really been bothering me, but since I can't afford decent med insurance at work, I can do nothing about it other than put on Biofreeze (I used too much the other day and holy hell did that hurt) and whince when it hurts at work...it sucks

Does it ever irritate you when something is said, or performed, or whatever the case may be, and people just don't "get it"? They think they do, and they'll be vocal about it, but it's obvious by what they're saying that they're totally missing the point? It's so irritating.

For example, my brother and I went to see this movie last week at the Ann Arbor Film Festival, Cesky Sen, and while it is hard to blog the point and ideas behind the movie, a major point of the film was that people are far too oblivious and naive when it comes to the media and advertising. So many people take what they see and hear as the gospel truth, when in reality, there is usually alterior motives behind just about everything we see and hear. That's why advertising is a billion dollar industry. People buy into things so easily and never really consider the consequences or think critically about what they're being told. At one point in the film, a guy working for an ad campaign makes the comment that he loves his job...that what he does on a daily basis, whether it be creating a poster, or billboard, or some catchy slogan, that that will affect thousands of people. In this particular movie, it was the "opening" of a hypermarket in the Czech Republic and he said that it's pretty cool knowing that he will control what thousands of people do at 10am on May 31st ("opening day"). That's a crazy thought...that we let these people control so much of what we do. I'm not trying to "dis" ad agencies or anything like that, I'm just saying that people need to pay more attention and think more about what they say and do. There are times when it's appropriate to be a "sponge" and soak up information, but when it comes to the media, in my opinion, that is not one of those times. Yeah, you can listen to what they have to say, but form your own damn opinon about shit, don't just agree with it or believe it to be fact just because so and so said it. And talk to people with differing opinions. Find out why they think what they do, maybe they'll have some valid points too. Very few things are black and white, there are always grey areas, and I think far too many people are set in their ideologies to see that.

(bit of a tangent there)...SOOOO...back to the beginning, about people just not getting it. A guy after the film said that he didn't really understand why the filmakers made the film (more or less) because what he got from the film is that advertising works, and that "duh, that's why it's a billion dollar industry, but why make a film about that?" Ok, yeah, the fact that advertising works was apparent in the film, but look deeper. Why does it work so well? Why do people allow themselves to be manipulated so easily?

Are you getting the point of my blog? Cause I'm not really sure I am

Defn: 1. One who is considered to be a "friend" of another, but only when there is no one better around. 2. One who is considered to be a "friend" to hang out with, but only when no one else is able to hang out. 3. One who is considered a "friend" but who is completely and blatantly ignored when "better" people are around. 4. One who listens to someone's stories and problems yet their advice is never good enough, or really even considered. 5.One who is fed up with being the substitute friend, but due to certain circumstances, can do next to nothing about it.

Ok, you may think this is corny, however I feel compelled to share this with all of you.

Have you ever watched a movie that left you feeling something completely indescribable? I felt that way today. Not the "indescribable" feeling where you're not quite sure if you liked it or not, cause I've watched plenty of those movies, but the "indescribable" feeling where words can honestly not describe exactly what you're feeling when the movie ends. For me, that movie was Elizabethtown. It may be partly because I am slightly hormonal, or that Orlando Bloom is absolutely adorable in the film, but the movie itself left me with this amazing feeling when I finished watching it. I was honestly grinning from ear to ear for probably a good 45 minutes after watching it.

I keep using the word "indescribable" because I don't think I want to define what it was I felt/am still feeling after watching it. I feel that defining it would make it less meaningful or special or whatever you want to call it. I know I probably sound absolutely crazy talking about a movie like this, but maybe this was something I needed. I mean, I like a lot of movies, but only 2 other movies that I can recall left me feeling this way...those movies are Garden State and Finding Neverland (and maybe, now that I think of it Big Fish) Seems like it's more those artsy type movies. Elizabethtown was just one of those feel good movies. While it had it's sad parts, it ended up making you laugh while you were still crying. And I felt for the characters, I was rooting for them, I was inspired by them. So many movies today involve violence, sadness, horror, or just stupid humor. Granted, I usually love those types of movies depending on my mood, but I think I needed a movie like Elizabethtown. It made me feel this honest to goodness peace. I forgot about life for a couple of hours, which was something I obviously needed.

This isn't exactly coming across the way I had planned, but I am pretty tired at this point, so this will have to do. Hopefully you get what I'm saying if you've seen the film, and if you haven't seen it, I hope you will do so to see if you agree with me. I absolutely loved this movie and definitely include it in my top 5 faves of all time. It just came at an important time in my life and hopefully I can follow through on the things I learned from the film....

...true greatness is sticking with something even after you failed miserably at it...don't take for granted the people in your life or the time you spend with them...you should never settle for being anyone's "substitute person"...

So Michelle and I went to bdubs for some eats and drinks yesterday, but when I went to pay with my debit card, my card was declined. "That's weird" I think to myself (and say out lout) "I just checked my statement online the other day and I still had $300+ in my account, even after the stuff that was still pending cleared" So today, I go to my account online to see what the eff is up, there is a pending charge for $500 exaclty (which leaves me with -$196 in my account. It doesn't say where it's from because it hasn't been posted to my account yet, but the last time I used my card was Monday at Borders, for a coffee, before I went to work and the only checks I have written that aren't cleared are still sitting on my counter, waiting to be mailed out. So I call customer service, and apparently the $500 charge is for some company named Georgios. Well I told her it wasn't me, so she transferred me over to the theft and fraud department. So they cancelled my card and are issuing me a new one. But they had to find out the last time I used the card...well there were 2 charges for Georgios, one for the $500 and another for $450, then there was some place in Houston, TX (can't remember the name) and a Sbarro's in Houston. So yeah, that's just crazy. So I have to go to the bank on Monday and fill out an afadavit for fraud and I won't be getting my new bank card until like the middle of next week. Which sucks. So I have like no money until Monday, which really isn't a big deal cause I can just use my other (almost maxed out) credit cards, but still. I'm glad I didn't deposit my paycheck the other day otherwise I never would have known this happened, or at least not until later, because my charge would have gone through at bdubs yesterday. Anyway, this will teach me to def. be more careful with receipts and I'll be checking my online statements more often, for my other cards as well. Stupid people...and what the crap is Georgios anyway!?

I had tons of fun this past weekend...

Friday: had dinner with Kari, Michelle, and Tim at Under the Eagle in Hamtramck...I had a hankering for polish food and it was quite good...I love dill pickle soup, sounds odd, I know but it's OH so good! After that we headed down to the Belmont where our good friends of Waking State were playing a show. They played a great set and we had fun hanging out with them afterward...had a few drinks, got a nice buzz. Then Kari and I went back to her place and got it on (yeah, not really, she went to bed and I slept on the couch). While we were at the Belmont, we found out that Waking State was playing a last minute show in Cleveland Saturday night, so Kari and I decided to stalk them...

Saturday: woke up around 1, too late to have enough time to go get Eric an ACTUAL birthday gift. We drove to my house so I could get ready for our little road trip to the land of Cleves (?) Probably didn't get on the road until 3:45 or so and unfortunately it was just cold enough with just enough precipitation to make I-75 suck major balls. So we went about 34-50mph through most of Michigan. Once we hit the Ohio it wasn't bad. We checked into the Econolodge (aka the roach motel) and tried to find out where bdubs was (cause that's where the band was going) but apparently hotel clerks have taken a vow to know nothing about the area in which they work. So we decided to find the bar where they were playing the show and see if there was anything to eat around there. We found the bar and decided to drive around a bit...and that we did. And if you were in the car with us you probably would have thought we were high cause we were acting like such jackasses, but it was tons of fun. At the bar this older guy started hitting on me and Kari...it was quite interesting. He obviously couldn't take a hint, maybe cause Kari actually LOOKED like she was paying attention to him..I kept looking around, which I would think is usually a hint someone's not interested. Anyway, James couldn't understand why he doesn't have a lady, even though he tells all the girls he meets that he still lives at home, has a POS pickup truck, works construction 6 months of the year, doesn't shave and doesn't do anything with his hair...I mean, why wouldn't a lady want ALL of that?! And he kept rubbing my back, gross. Then Kari did something a friend should never do in a situation like that...she got up and went to the bathroom...and James saw that as the perfect opportunity to come talk to me. So I'm sitting there with my arms crossed and he tells me he doesn't like my body language and tries to move my arms, but I tell him I'm just cold (which I sorta was). So he starts to take his sweatshirt off to give it to me and I'm like "NO, I'm fine, really", so he says, "ok, well I can take you out in the parking lot and we can make-out, that'll warm you up", UM, GROSS! He asked us where we were staying and we told him we were staying at a hotel with the band and he said we could totally have stayed with him at his house, uh, NO. So he told us to come and visit him and what not. So the band played another fabulous set, and that kept James away, thankfully. But when the band finished, he came up again. So we're sitting there and I keep looking across the room, hoping to catch the eye of one of the band members so they can come save us, but to no avail. So I had finally had enough and got up and went and told Brent that he had to come save us because James wouldn't leave us alone (though he did buy us beers). So Brent waited a minute or so and came over and James promptly went away. And what's kinda funny is he didn't bother us the rest of the night, he didn't even say goodbye. Maybe he knew we were making fun of him, I dunno. Anyway, we watched a terrible cover band called Badd Intent, and even though they sucked, it was entertaining...maybe that was because I'd had a bit to drink as well, who knows. So we went back to the hotel, hung out with the band, smoked, made fun of some anime, and ate some slim jims. Slept for about 4 hours then drove home so I could work for about 11.5 hours...woop woop.

What a day...what a week! I am so tired. Since Monday night, I've probably only gotten a total of I'd say MAYBE 15 hours of sleep...SO not good...I am exhausted, so I'm going to sleep in as late as I possibly can tomorrow before I have to go to work and close, then get up Monday morning and open...I LOVE that! Anyway, blogging really isn't helping me get much sleep, but when I'm not so tired I'll update my last couple days and my experiences in Detroit with the craziness...though I should go shower cause I smell like chicken wings...and that's just gross to me right now

Wow, so I've just had quite the enlightening conversation. I can't talk about it (so please don't ask) but I guess it puts a lot of shit to rest. I am now free to move on. Not to say I'm not still upset about anything, but that's life. We live, we learn, we are made stronger. It has been quite the emotional roller coaster ride of a week, and not just for me. I'm glad it is over. Tomorrow is a new day, a new week, and a start for a new me (hopefully)

So I think I just might update only this blog today cause fewer people I know read it. It has been quite the emotional last couple days, seemingly never ending. Monday was the last day I worked with Seth, so that was kinda weird. There were a couple times in the middle of the night where I was talking to Angela and I just had to walk away cause I was welling up with tears. So it was kind of a lazy night, I was sick and emotional, which doesn't make for very good work ethic. But Q and Seth didn't seem to care...in fact, Seth set up the March of the Penguins in the winner circle, which was kinda cute. Even though I wouldn't let Hollie do it the other day...Seth can do whatever the crap he wants!

Tuesday, Craig sends me a message during the day telling me that everyone was going up to Snookers at 11 for a little going away thing for Seth. So I let a bunch of people know and we met up at work and went over there. I knew I was gonna have to get effed up to deal with the night, so that's what I set out to do. I had a shot and a drink at work then had a few beers when we got over to Snookers. I drank em pretty quick too, and I HATE beer. When we got there he was there with a few of the cocktails and waitstaff people, but there really wasn't room for us to sit there, so we had to sit several tables away. Which is probably a very good thing because the fucking whores I work with were all up on his cock all night...no joke. So we bought him a shot which gave him a chance to escape the masses of women surrounding him. So he sat down with us and did the shot and we talked to him for awhile until a couple girls came over and said they were "stealing their hottie back because he has shots waiting for him" FUCK OFF! That irritated the shit out of me, but whatever, what could I do. DRINK! So I had that shot with Seth, then Hillary and I did a shot of tequila, then I did a shot of jager and an oatmeal cookie, along with another beer. Then Hillary ordered me a blowjob shot, which Q made sure Seth was there to witness me do. Yeah, that wasn't ambarassing at all! So for those of you who don't know, you have to do a blow job shot with no hands. I figured I would have no problem cause it was a small shot glass...not thinking about the part that I'm totally tanked! So I go to do it and I'm not quite sure how it happened, but I ended up spilling it all over the table and in the process of trying to rescue it, I successfully knock over my other new drink that was sitting on the table, don't even know what it was, didn't even have a chance to taste it. Tally, 2 drinks spilled. So I stand up, everyone's laughing at me, I feel like a jackass, but I'm piss drunk, so who cares. So I'm standing and me being the person who likes to move my hands and arms when I talk (even more so when I'm drunk) turn around, only to knock into a poor waiter carrying a tray of drinks, which I spill all over my jeans. Tally, 5 drinks total spilled. So Seth, Q, and Mike walk away after a good laugh.

Mind you, I've been an emotional rollercoaster all evening. Hugging everyone and such, lord knows how many times I hugged Will and Darnell. So I don't even know if there was a specific thing that triggered it other than the alcohol but I just hugged Will and no joke sobbed in his arms for probably 5 minutes. My back was to everyone from work (other than my peeps). But apparently everyone else was starting to look over at me, so fabulous Michelle decides to try and cover and says "give me a hi-5, we'll pretend you said something really funny" So we did that, not sure if it worked, but oh well. Then I had to take a leak so us girls go to the bathroom to enter into drama. Well I had no issue with anyone in there and Ray Ray and I were joking around about something and she started to pour her beer down my cleavage, so in pushing her arm away, she drops her full bottle of beer all over the floor and the glass shatters. Tally, 6 drinks spilled! Ah yes, I'm sure Snookers can't wait for me to come back! So we go back out and by this time they were getting ready to close up the bar and everyone was saying goodbye to a drunk Seth. So Hollie was over talking to him and she motioned for me to come over and get a picture "with them" but she stealthily slips out of the picture. So while Brandy is trying to figure out my camera, she manages to take a few crappy pictures of me and Seth with our arms around each other and one, somewhat decent one...him with a goofy look on his face and me looking at him like I'm madly in love (go figure). So that was sort of the end of the night. Michelle ended up driving me home and I made sure to puke before I went to sleep, felt 100 times better after that. Mind you, on the drive home I texted Seth like 3 times, retard me.

So today was his last day at work, but I knew he wasn't working his entire shift because all the managers were taking him out to dinner. So I wanted to make sure and get there before 5:30 when they were supposedly leaving. I had bought a card for him and had everyone in the winner circle sign it, so me and Amanda went and gave it to him. And as we're walking away, he looks at Amanda and asked if she was leaving and she said no, we were going to eat, so he said ok. So while we were eating I could see he was making his rounds and saying goodbye to everyone, so he comes up to our table and talked to Amanda for a minute and she said she'd miss him and stuff and that we'd come see him in Cleveland. So he said goodbye to her and started to walk away and he and I just looked at each other and he walked away. So I'm thinking, ok, he's gonna come say goodbye to me later while I'm working or something. So I clock in at 6 and go see Angela and she said that he came back there and waited for her to finish helping people and he gave her a hug and such. Which is really sweet. Still for me, nothing. So here's me, all night, hoping that when the managers get back from their dinner he'll come back in the building and say goodbye to me...but they were still gone when I left. So apparently there's no goodbye. What the EFF!? I am so bothered by this and I don't think anyone really understands. It was almost as if he avoided saying goodbye. I mean I guess I sorta did the same thing, but at some point, I knew I would have to say it, right?! But I didn't even have that opportunity. So yeah, I totally don't get it. I was thinking maybe he thought we said it last night at the bar or something, but we didn't and we were both fucked up anyway it totally wouldn't count. And even if we had, he still could have said it tonight. Paul said that sometimes that's just how people say goodbye. Amanda said that maybe he just felt awkward and didn't know what to say. Angela was positive he would come back later and say something, otherwise that's just shitty, and Leah thinks it's kinda weird. So I don't know. I guess I'm just mostly bothered because I feel that a proper goodbye/hug would be a huge part of the closure I need. But now I just have this crappy feeling and wondering of why he didn't say anything, why he seemingly avoided it? I even told him earlier that I have a going away gift for him but it hasn't come in the mail yet. So maybe he knows we'll see each other again and just didn't feel the need to say it. I don't know. All I know is that I'm pretty upset about it and you can all continue to think I'm crazy and overanalyzing and shit, but whatever. After writing him that letter and whatnot, I guess I feel I deserve a proper goodbye...maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'll do the poetry writing tonight. I'm definitely feeling the emotions for sure.

So...he's gone. Forever. It felt weird. After they left, walking through the midway, I was thinking how weird it will be to not see him there anymore. For him to not be the reason I look forward to going to work any shift. To not hear his voice over the PA or radio when I call for a manager. For him to not make fun of me when I can't count for shit during MRI. To not be able to make fun of his handwriting and the way he writes anymore. Adam hadn't changed the board yet on the bridge, so Seth's name was still up there from today...as Cleveland. As I was leaving I looked to see if his name was still on his mailbox...it was...but the mailbox was empty. Fitting I suppose, because that's how I'm gonna be feeling for awhile.

So I'm listening to David Gray right now while writing an email to my friend Christina and I'm only half listening to the lyrics...so the only line of this song that I hear is "To water so cold it makes your bones ache" HOWEVER, that is not how I heard the line...what I hear is "to water so cold it makes your balls ache" So I totally stopped what I was doing, rewound the song, and listened to the line again. Still, that is what I hear...but I think "there is no way David Gray would sing that in a song, but he totally is" Yeah, but he's not. I just thought that was funny and wanted to share with y'all Now I must finish my novel of an email to Christina...woop woop

oh, and Lizard, if you read this, Matty and I SO need to hang out with you! We miss you!!!

Gonna close my eyes
...and watch you go
Running through this life darling
Like a field of snow
As the tracer glides
In its graceful arc
Send a little prayer out to ya
'cross the falling dark

Tell the repo man
And the stars above
You're the one I love

Perfect summers night
Not a wind that breathes
Just the bullets whispering gentle
'mongst the new green leaves
There's things I might have said
Only wish I could
Now I'm leaking life faster
Then I'm leaking blood

Tell the repo man
And the stars above
You're the one I love
You're the one I love
The one I love

Don't see Elysium
Don't see no fiery hell
Just the lights up bright baby
In the bay hotel
Next wave coming in
Like an ocean roar
Won't you take my hand darling
On that old dancefloor

We can twist and shout
Do the turtle dove
And you're the one I love
You're the one I love
The one I love

ok, so I'm not gonna post yet about Rock Boat VI (too much to say and too little time at the moment)...HOWEVER...

Rock Boat VII, January 11-15 2007, leaving from Ft. Lauderdale with ports of call in Turks and Caicos...who's in!? For real, y'all should come cause it's a kick ass time with some kick ass bands!!! C'mon, you have a year to save up!

Let the countdown begin!

ok, so I'm not gonna post yet about Rock Boat VI (too much to say and too little time at the moment)...HOWEVER...

Rock Boat VII, January 11-15 2007, leaving from Ft. Lauderdale with ports of call in Turks and Caicos...who's in!? For real, y'all should come cause it's a kick ass time with some kick ass bands!!! C'mon, you have a year to save up!

Let the countdown begin!